oh god i don’t actually know how to deal with being asked to hang out by a boy??? especially to the movies??? how do i even cope with this
i don’t even know how to bring it up to my dad because, uh, i come from a white family in alabama and he would not react well to “hey dad can i go to the movies with this guy who just so happens to be black” and i don’t really want to sneak around his back because i don’t want to lose his trust. but this guy is really sweet and i like him and i think he likes me and i don’t want to pass it up just because my dad has antiquated ideas about racial differences. also i already said yes to him soooo
ugh i’m probably going to have to lie to my dad fml
i’m really fucking depressed and i don’t know how to express it but i got my dad to make a therapy appointment for me anyway and it’s tomorrow but we only have five mental health specialist visits a year and it costs us $50 every time even with insurance and we just can’t afford for me to consistently go but i don’t think i can just go five times in a year and i don’t think this one hour will be enough to last me a couple of months because i’m pretty fucked up and i have been for a while and it really hurts
Bottom of the River- Delta Rae
Hold my hand
Ooh baby, it’s a long way down to the bottom of the river
This song most accurately describes my dysphoric manias, if not by the lyrics then definitely by the tone.
WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU TELL SOMEONE ONE OF THEIR FRIENDS IS DEAD BUT NOT TELL THEM WHO
YOU’RE NOT RESPECTING THE FAMILY IN DOING THAT
YOU’RE JUST CAUSING MORE PANIC
a student at my school committed suicide and i don’t know who it was yet and i’m terrified of who it might be
